Tomorrow our Article 5 is scheduled to be picked up, then we wait for the travel approval. These TAs have taken only 4 days in some cases and 10 days in other cases. We have no idea how long it will take. Of course, I am praying for a 4 day wait! If you do the math, there are only 12 days until the beginning of Chinese New Year. After we get a travel approval, our agency will call the US Consulate and request an appointment date of either March 16 or 17. That takes an additional couple of days. So if we only have 12 days until Chinese New Year, we are literally up to the deadline to have everything before Feb. 17.
My heart is begging God to send our travel approval in the fewest possible days. I am praying that we get it sooner because I want to KNOW when we are going to travel. I am trying to trust that He can do it – He’s answered our requests for a quicker wait before. I am also trying to trust Him if we don’t get what we want.
Isn’t it harder to wait for answer, not knowing if we will get what we want? My soul is so tempted to trust my own flesh and what I can see. You would think, after I’ve disappointed myself over and over again I wouldn’t trust my fickle heart. When will I learn that I must trust in God alone?
Even if I don’t get what I want, is God still good?
Even if we don’t get to travel in March, can I still trust God?
Even if nothing goes as planned….is God enough?
If I find it hard to answer that questions, I’ve found that my heart is looking for satisfaction in something other than Him. My hope should be in God alone.
If my mood is dependent on events (especially those events that are completely out of my control), then I’ve said unconsciously: God is not enough.
Charles H. Spurgeon said…
“Isn’t God enough to meet all your needs, or is His all-sufficiecy too little for your needs? Do you want another eye beside the one that sees every secret thing? Is His heart faint? Is His arms weary? If so, seek another god. But if He is Infinite, Omnipotent, Faithful, True, and All-wise then why run around looking for another confidence? Why rake the earth to find another foundation when this one is strong enough to bear all the weight you can ever build on.”
God is enough.
I wrote these words because my heart needs a reminder.
Daily. I need to remember daily (sometimes hourly) that God is enough. No matter the circumstances, God is enough.
He is good enough to hear my cry (even when the answer is no).
He is strong enough for me to trust.
He is loving, merciful, wise, and holy to give me what I need.
instead in addition to praying for a quick TA, I’m going to pray that my heart sees that my hope is in God alone.