Yes, six months ago we arrived home and she was legally our daughter. A relationship takes time though. And being a daughter and belonging like a daughter are two separate things. A relationship is not found in blood or even a piece of paper. A relationship is formed over time and with lots of love. Sometimes we have to choose to love, even when we don’t feel it. She is our daughter more and more each day. God has created our family. He is working in ALL of our hearts.
She is moving and crawling. So close to walking! She is eating better, communicating better. My favorite thing about her is seeing her choices. Her preferences. Her personality. All coming to life! For the first time in her life, she gets to choose these small things. Even getting to choose what she eats!
I love getting to make choices for her now. There are so many things about her past I wouldn’t have chosen….but a something as simple as a haircut has taught me that choices mean belonging….and she belongs to us.
I think about her past, and how her past is not who she is anymore. Her past does not define. It is only part of her story. It was only her beginning, and as hard and painful as that beginning was for her, it was in His plan. He always knew she belonged with us. I’m only beginning to see how He has been with her from day one.
Her love for all us blossoms in smiles, but she still prefers Titus to the other siblings….
Her favorite thing is her pink blanket. It goes with her everywhere. Although I wouldn’t have let any of my other two-year-olds carry around their blanket…..she is still much like a six-month old. So the blanket is welcome to come anywhere and everywhere.
If the blanket brings her comfort, it is worth it!
We were concerned the sand and waves would be too much, but she surprised us all and loved the beach!
Just as she is becoming more and more comfortable in our family, I am becoming more and more comfortable in who I have become as her mother. God has grown me more spiritually in the past six months then I thought possible. It hasn’t been easy….this growing. However, today I proclaim to you:
On His throne He sits, in His steadfast love and faithfulness. (Isaiah 16:5)
Six months with a momma and daddy.
Six months with siblings who adore and care for her.
Six months with haircuts and ball games.
Six months with a trip to the beach and fun in a pool.
Six months of 5-on-1 love!
God has been on His throne from day one. The only explanation of how we have grown and changed is through His steadfast love and faithfulness.
Its hard to believe the sweet smiling tanned baby was once a pale, withdrawn and scared bundle of weakness.
Our God truly is Faithful.
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