I just want a break. I want to be alone. I need quiet. Please, no one ask me for anything. No one say my name. No music. No television. Just the sounds of…..silence. If I could cook one meal in peace, I would be happy. It is the reason nap time and bed time are sometimes a mother’s favorite time of the day.
Yet, when I travel out of town, who do I miss the most? Yes. Those little humans who are following me around all day long at home. As I go to the bathroom by myself, take a shower without hearing screaming in the background, and eat a meal without having to share bites, I still miss them.
My children love to be near me. It is normal, and natural. I should take it as a compliment. Be patient with them. They love me. I brings security and they fell protected by me. I struggle with how often my two older boys will “tattle” on each other. They come to me, telling me how they were wronged, because they know I’ll fix it. I’ll make it fair. I’m just. I make things…..right.
It is normal to what and need a break as moms, but when we don’t have the oppourtinty and our children are always near us, it is hard. We feel trapped. Hedged in. It all becomes too much sometimes. It is times like those I run to my Heavenly Father. No matter how close they like to sit next to me on the couch, or snuggle with me in bed, even my children cannot come as near to me as my Father.
I look around and life is hard. No matter the season. No matter the age of your children or the number of your children, mothering (and life) is hard. Its designed to be hard, but its never going to be too hard. I remember being in the hospital with my first born looking at these nurses thinking, I can’t believe these women are going to send me home with this baby. Don’t they know I have NO idea what I’m doing!? You might not know what you are doing as a mother, but you can know your Heavenly Father sees you. And He is nearer than you think.
As much as I love my children, and love that they love to be near me, I still need my space. Not so with God. I don’t find myself praying to Him, God, I need space from you. No, I find myself needing MORE of Him. I pray He comes nearer to me.
Psalm 119:151 says: “But you are near, O Lord, and all your commands are true.” Near to me. I began thinking about God’s nearness.
Psalm 34:18 – The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
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