Blowout. An eruption. An outburst, explosion of…..
Let me be honest with you, dear reader. I don’t think of blowout without replaying my less-than-popular mommy-moments. I’m so not ready to say this, but I will. Mostly because I think maybe I’m not alone.
I deal with mommy-anger.
There, I said it. Its true. The last year and half, I seen myself get so angry, and I’ve been shocked to find such horrible attitudes coming from my own heart (and mouth). Let me say, its driven me to my knees in utter repentance. Never have I struggled with this until this year. I could blame it on an 8-year-old with possible ADHD, a 4-year-old who is extremely strong-willed, and a special-needs, non-verbal 3-year-old.
Or, I could blame it on this: I’m a sinner. Its not complicated. Its not their fault, nor is it my bad-parenting. Let me say that to you, dear friend: Your anger is not a result of bad-parenting. Your anger is a result of needing a Savior. Yep. The only hope I’ve found in my struggle with my blowouts is through the turning to God for help.
After reading Ruthie’s book, Count to Nine, I’ve realized the problem is not the circumstances, or even in my own faults, the problem is my sin nature, and thankfully there is a cure. Its in God’s Word. I’m not there yet. I still struggle with this, but I can see myself gaining ground. I’ve seen progress as I’ve begun to pay attention to verses in the Bible that talk about the tongue and our speech. I’ve really tried to commit this area to the Lord in prayer.
And I’ll pray for you, if you will pray for me. Let’s not let blowouts be the end.
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