I wrote these words last month. I hadn’t been held my child yet, but he was coming to my arms soon. My mind, heart, and hands were busy with preparation, but I had to write out my thoughts. Here is what come from it….
The rain poured down the windshield, the wipers worked overtime allowing me to see as we slowed down with the traffic on the interstate. My girls hummed in the back to the song from my iPhone. Since their big brothers were at basketball camp, we decided to have a girl’s day – at the mall. It was the day before we were flying out to China, and I needed to get out of the house and forget about paperwork, laundry, and packing for a while. I stocked up on quarters and we took the Lee Street exit. As we slowed, and the rain softened, I glimpsed in front of me the Women’s and Children’s hospital. The pink and faded gray building towered above the river’s curve.
Suddenly, I was thrown back a few years ago, traveling this same road, making my way to the hospital at 39.5 weeks pregnant, getting ready to be induced. I knew the next day I would be meeting my new baby. And here I was again, just three days before I would be meeting my fifth child. Instead of going straight at the light, the girls and I took a sharp right and headed to the mall. I paid the women a $1.75 and found a parking spot. I got out of the car and couldn’t shake the feeling of getting ready to meet my baby again.
Here I was, just days before being handed my baby, and I was following my little girl around Claire’s, picking out a few last minute clothes for the boys and chatting with a friend in passing. Normal things. Ordinary things. Yet, I was on the cusp of a huge change. I was feeling….I don’t know exactly. Nervous and excited all wrapped up into one? Can someone feel ALL emotions at once? Scared? Lonely? Ecstatic? Elated?
So, to the momma, before you are handed your baby, let me tell you a few things. Whether your baby comes through the pain of labor, the cut of a c-section, the agony of waiting, or because a birth mother chose you – let me say a few things about you and your child. I wrote these words to my own heart first. Maybe you could eavesdrop as I spoke truth to the troubled heart whirling with emotions the day before I step on a plane…..Read the rest here.
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